Tuesday, November 16, 2010


There's this song I'm hooked on...

It's beautiful and painful ... and though I can't relate to what the song is actually about, the chorus got me. This line: "Just gonna stand there and hear me cry" That line makes me think of my dad and the way he can "just watch" us cry now. Breaks my heart every time I hear it.

Well, now apparently there is a part two out which starts with these lyrics:
On the first page of our story
the future seemed so bright
then this thing turned out so evil
I don't know why I'm still surprised
even angels have their wicked schemes
and you take that to new extremes
but you'll always be my hero
even though you've lost your mind

Oh my goodness, the first time I heard this and those bolded lyrics, the tears just started pouring.

That whole part gets me though too now that I've heard it a time or two ... again, not in the manner of what the song is really about, but for what me and my family are going through with my dad. That's it - some awful, wicked, unjust twist of fate to lose him and this way. There are moments when I see him, like first thing in the mornings, where for a split second you forget since he's right there, but he's not, not really. My dad's pretty much gone and yet his body is still here wandering around to break our hearts all the time.

Ugh, I miss you, miss you, miss you....